Random thoughts

Sometimes I get really introspective, and it's usually a bad thing. Life has been pretty hectic last few weeks, and I have admittedly been hiding from everyone with the exception of Mom and Jason. It wasn't really intentional.

I feel like my friends are perturbed with me--especially Shaun. I called him to say happy birthday (his is the day before mine) and he we seemed a bit put out. I could be wrong, but I can' t help but feel he's mad at me. When I called yesterday his dad answered the phone. They sound exactly alike on the phone, so I thought he was Shaun. His dad made the remark that it had been so long that I couldn't tell them apart. Makes me think Shaun has said something about my not calling recently. Perhaps I'm just being too analytical, but I know how Shaun is. If he was mad at me, he wouldn't say anything... just brood.
I hope he's not mad at me.

Onto happier thoughts...

Jason has been wonderful that last few days since Secret was hurt. Sometimes I feel like he's unhappy, and I wonder if he's really going to stick around, but when I'm upset or sad, he's always there to make me feel better. He had to drive with Mom to the emergency clinic on Wednesday, and yesterday he told me he understood her a little better. It's like suddenly all the anger he's harbored towards her is gone. Somehow, that meant more to me than a million "I love you's"